Torn, Shattered

Open your eyes, don't you see or are you blind? Hiding in the shadows, she watches the lives of those who are around her. Wonders why can't she have that; the love and the family and so much more. As she walks among them, no one see's her; bleeding, torn and shattered. I don't know how she lives after all this shit. She keeps on trucking, making the same damn mistakes over and over again. No matter how much she keeps her head up; things just fall apart. Struggling to keep food on the table, helping those and not worrying about herself; she's torn, shattered. She don't tell no one, she shuts up; acts normal but insdies she's falling. Falling over and over again, but she can't fall; too much is at stake. Someone depends on her, someone needs her to keep them living. So she smiles and puts on her face, steps outside and takes on the world. She has no idea what she's doing, but keeps on; her feelings she hides, her dreams she keeps them hidden, she's losing herself, falling behind and losing this on going battle. Everyday she keeps thinking it will be all over soon, but for now as she puts on her face and lies through her teeth to everyone that asks; HOW IS LIFE?" All she does is smile and says fine. Though its a lie, she don't say a word about her struggles, her loss; her life fading as she starts to just only exists now. She won't tell them that her life is hard, fucked up and that they live a better life then she does but she keeps her anger inside because she knows its a losing battle but if they were to live in her shoes; they wouldn't last a day. So as they ask often, she lies and says fine.... but insides she's torn, shattered!