Waiting.....

Take a look at me, do you see what's wrong? Can you see my hands tremble? I've been messed up for so long, it's like I've become untouchable. I am slow dieing, frost killing, sweet solace. I can't seem to find my ground, can't to find myself. The tunnel is getting darker and yet I can still your face. You're the love of my life, I am looking for a way to find you. Maybe if the darkness, the sweetness, the sadness, the lullaby will save me and help me find my road that leads back to you.
Hopefully now since I'm cleaning all the mess I've done, you will be able to look at me the same as you have for so many years.
Waiting is such sweet sorrow, but when it's morrow once again, it might just be wonderful.

Everything Changes

Normally I don't write about other people, but I truly and honestly have to voice something. These two have become a big influence in my life in so many ways, and not to give them support would be like not offending someone who's part of my life. So below these photos of Jaime & David Boreanaz is how I feel and how I view all this. It's a POV of mine that might actually voice David in a way. Of course I am not David but I'll give it a shot.




Sometimes we fall and when we fall sadly we don't land on our feet. Usually we land on our butts. I think that love has a passion to it, maybe we all won't understand it but the ones who do, they're the lucky ones.


Everything changes, if I could turn back the years, I know I'd take back everything and make it right. You're my life, my world. I know I've messed up but deep inside I want to make it right, how I will do that, not sure how. Don't worry I will make amends, give you the world you deserve. Just give me a little time to make my way through the darkness. Seems like forever, but I will make sure that we will have it all. Everything I may say might seem stupid, it may change how you feel, but I am the mess you chose. So please don't give up on US!

I just thought I write it out because I am sitting here thinking and hoping that it all works out for the both of them!