Just a Little

I can stand here all day long, listen to the none stop praise but it doesn't mean that it's all true. Through the dark days, I listen to myself, I'm not confused when I am having problems in my life.

If I can give up one thing in life, I would say nothing. Why give up something that isn't mine to give in the first place.

Just like the leaves outside change colors and are never in the same place, it's my life in a nutshell.

Can it still be that simple? Can it be hard to live without actual love? Do we need love to live? Maybe we do or maybe we don't, but are you willing to take that risk of happiness?

Maybe just a little at a time things will make sense, become clearer. Only time will tell.

Today

"Why is that life seems so unfair and yet so fair at the same time? I keep asking myself many times why this world is so cruel, but never seem to get a straight answer."

That was then, this is now.

----> Now today I sit outside, looking at the trees blow, the leaves fall and the climate changes. Sometimes I can tell by the day on how the leaves rattle. When the sun sets, the world becomes calmer. Not fully of course, but it settles with a grace of beauty. I never saw the world like I do now. Never did I picture it so beautiful after all the horror I've tasted from this never ending cycle of hatred by those who don't have a reason to live.

Today you would ask me if I was ready to die, would I be... simple answer. YES!
Yes, that's right I would answer you YES. Why? Because I know where I stand, don't need to be afraid of anything. Do I want to go and leave this world, at one point I would of said yes to you. Now I say HELL NO! There is too many things to see and there are reasons now for me to live.

So today I say:
"Hello world, how have you been? I'm ready to tackle the ups & downs you throw at me. Be patient with me, I'll give you a grand ole time."

David Boreanaz