Today

"Why is that life seems so unfair and yet so fair at the same time? I keep asking myself many times why this world is so cruel, but never seem to get a straight answer."

That was then, this is now.

----> Now today I sit outside, looking at the trees blow, the leaves fall and the climate changes. Sometimes I can tell by the day on how the leaves rattle. When the sun sets, the world becomes calmer. Not fully of course, but it settles with a grace of beauty. I never saw the world like I do now. Never did I picture it so beautiful after all the horror I've tasted from this never ending cycle of hatred by those who don't have a reason to live.

Today you would ask me if I was ready to die, would I be... simple answer. YES!
Yes, that's right I would answer you YES. Why? Because I know where I stand, don't need to be afraid of anything. Do I want to go and leave this world, at one point I would of said yes to you. Now I say HELL NO! There is too many things to see and there are reasons now for me to live.

So today I say:
"Hello world, how have you been? I'm ready to tackle the ups & downs you throw at me. Be patient with me, I'll give you a grand ole time."