Just another Day?

As I sit here listening to the sounds of the cars on the freeway, I keep wondering how can you see through me like an open door? Have I become so numb that my soul is gone, my spirit sleeping? Wake me UP! I can't wake up... I can't wake up! Help... Why? Save me from the nothing I've become. Now that I know what I am doing, my breathe is no longer strained. Wake me up, I can't wake up. Call my name, please, call my name. She knew, all this time! Leading me down this road that was nothing but a lie, she covered it with roses and beautiful scent of daisies. Broken, torn, battered, and helpless, I fell.
In the dark, the shadows I see now. You were there from the beginning, bringing me to life. But I am so tired, my fears seem to be catching up, but I want to leave. I wish I could leave, but this presence that lingers won't leave me alone. My wounds keep bleeding out, the pain is so real. Time has stopped and I cry, I scream, fighting those fears I carry. No one is holding my hand, not like she use too. The light that use to capture me is now fading. I am bound by the life you left, your face chases me while I find my ground. Too much has gone by and yet you are still in every part of my body.
I fight and fight, I held your memory for so long, why can't I let go? You have all of me, I have tried telling myself you're gone and yet you're still with me. I want to go home. I thought I had found home, but it turns out I am still in the same place I have been for years. I can't tell you why I feel this way. I just feel this everyday, all I do is keep it on the down low. Where do I belong? I want to go home! I want to find myself again, broken inside I stumble. No place to go. Finding the reasons to live, take the next breathe of air, I am scared. This sacred heart is falling into shreds. Feelings, losing my mind, I can't find my place and I am falling! Nothing to hold onto. Please, why... help... Just another day?

-Voice of the unheard girl